It’s me and my wishful thinking:
“Your favorite superhero, Ironman 3 is up… so.. please choose me to go watch the premiere with you.”
I missed you Tumblr. I got busy with … myself?
I’ve never felt so free to be alone on most days lately. I never appreciated individuality and loving yourself this much.
From listening to explicit rap music to going around in circles in a familiar place just for fun—these things you could do without the hassle of a company to tell you what to do. It’s that liberating.
I’m not being anti-social, I am still in need of people for spontaneous dates and frisbee on the beach, but for now I live how much I am given.
What depresses me lately, my muffin top :( damn it, I’m getting liposuction. My short abs exercises in the morning and at night is frustrating.
What makes me happy, a good nap. A long one too.
What excites me, meet ups with friends here. I seldom see them and when we do it’s always a good time.
What leaves me confused, is all these new people I met. I am so tired of starting all over and seriously, I may be single but i know who I want— Zac Efron.
What is heartbreaking, Hudson disturbed me in my self-actualization program and now he left me hanging again. Back on the goal, let him be. let him go.
What feels accomplishing, withdrawing from the online social communities. I don’t care about them people and they shouldnt care about me too. May my friends communicate with me through my whatsapp, viber and kakao. I figured that’s the only legitimate way of catching up.
What makes me lazy, everything. Haha even by making this. But I love you, Tumblr.
What makes me guilty, I sold my soul to Pinterest.
I shall grasp this moment which lasted for 24 hours (can’t be called a moment anymore) where My mind, heart and soul are immaculate and in one. It’s very peaceful. It refuses to entertain whimsical thoughts, rejects any form of emotion and most of all doesn’t thirst for anything miraculous.
It’s just there. Feeling one another’s existence to create ME. Whatever is in the past is buried, the present to be carefully scrutinized and the future to never even think of.
No, I didn’t do yoga or met romance along the way. I cant say there was more to it but I know this epiphany didn’t come less from it. This just happened and I’m really relieved.
Sometimes it’s better for everything to shut down or have power failure to know not just what’s wrong but what even came right.
And so far what came right was that God was always with me and wasn’t against me all throughout.